Now that I have entered my second trimester (that went fast), my emotions seem to be taming down a touch. Praise. The. Lord. It's hard when you're on a roller coaster almost everyday of highs and lows. I am usually pretty even with my emotions, and usually on the high end of happy/excited. So this has been a struggle.
Anyways, if you've read previous posts, you know what my thought process has been. The struggle now is to not wish for the future or want to change the past. It's good to learn from choices you've made and recognize what you could do different in the future, but it's not healthy to dwell on the past or really, the future. It's important to make the most of each day and live in the PRESENT. That's what God calls us to. He wants us to recognize our need for Him and live intentionally.
How am I living intentionally for Him right now with the issue of money? Well, right now working full-time or anymore than I am now just isn't really an option. I know God wants me to be with my daughter, and I love it. Her life is more important than our money situation. I know that if we could "go back" and get less student loans or a cheaper house, we would....but WE CAN'T. And that's ok. God has a purpose and plan for what we are in right now.
What I decided to do is to P.R.A.Y.
Knowing the truth about our situation still doesn't change it. This is really hard. I like to change things immediately. What I have to do is bathe it in prayer. I have to say, "Listen God, we messed up, knowingly at times and unknowingly other times with finances. We surrender it all to You."
Jehovah Jireh = The God who sees. The God who Provides.
No matter what situation, God is still our Provider. His grace is always abounding. I can say that we are doing ALL we can to not spend money on wants....we are only spending money on needs. I know that God will continue providing for us. How do I know?
"I was once young, now I am old. I have never seen a godly man abandoned, or his children forced to search for food." Psalm 37:25
"Then you will take delight in the Lord, and he will answer your prayers." Psalm 37:4
"And my God will supply your every need according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19
I have decided to claim that The Lord is My Banner (found in Exodus 17:8-15). One way of doing this is praying over these scriptures and others. I have also written them out and am putting them around the house. God has put it on my heart these past few days to do this. There is power in the Word of God. Also, my husband is out working his heart out for us, I believe it's my job to be an advocate for him and our family while I'm home all day. What better way to praise our Savior, teach my child, and grow my walk with Christ?
Thanks for the prayers :)