I am not sure what God is trying to do with me but it's something. I am 38 weeks pregnant now and am having good and bad days still. I am very thankful that I'm not working cause I don't know if I could make it! The other day I prayed a lot about going into labor...but it hasn't been answered yet (the good thing is it will be soon!). But each day I see as it possibly being "today". I am experiencing cramping last night and this morning with more Braxton Hicks...but we'll see when it turns into the real thing.
My struggle is the bad days. On Saturday I developed this rash on my belly. My stomach has been itching really bad and I don't like the rash cause it itches too. I felt kind of miserable that night. It hasn't gone away and was better yesterday. Then, I think it's the season changing, but I have been waking up at night and this last night I developed a stuffy nose and feeling drained. So now I have a cold along with this rash. I just didn't think I'd be getting all these ailments at the end of my pregnancy. It's hard cause I am not feeling well right now and I think about how I'll feel if I go into labor tonight.....ughhh.
But through it all I need to remember to praise my Lord and Savior. I have so much to be thankful for. I am having a baby girl soon, I have a wonderful husband and family, and I can stay home and rest right now. I remember the story of Job and how he lost everything and the Apostles being in prison and stoned for their passion for Christ and they still praised the Lord. How am I worthy of anything less? I have a comfy home and can talk about the Lord all I want without torture. My goal in this life isn't to be comfortable, it's to bring glory to my Savior and King. Soon this will be a memory and I just want to glorify God through this time because He deserves glory ALL the time. So that's my lesson in this blog and this day. The Lord is good all the time and always deserves praise.
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
2 Corinthians 12:9